hello, hun.how are you? this is such a sad story. it brought tears to my eyes. I can understand your pain. I must say. your such a strong women. keep it up. lots of prayers for you. go for surrogacy. my sister has osteoporosis disease. she cannot conceive naturally. she is under surrogacy process in Ukraine. the clinic is professional accommodation and food provided. I suggest you that too. take care. bye.