Sorry to hear about your loses and failures.I also had many failures few years ago.I was trying to conceive from last 10 years but had no luck.Than i went for IUI but i failed at IUI.Then i went for IVF and had few cycles of IVF but failed in IVF too.I was heart broken at my failures like you.But than i came to know about surrogacy.Than i started looking for surrogacy and found a clinic.Now i will move to Ukraine for the clinic.And soon i will have a baby.