Hey Olivia, I hope you are doing well. Infertility is very painful. It is hard to overcome it. Also it can’t be cured with medicines. I am glad you decided to look for other options. I can understand your situation. We are is the same boat. I am also an infertile. The reason of my infertility is heart disease. Luckily, my husband supported me. We decided to look for other options. We chose surrogacy over IVF or adoption. We consulted a clinic for treatment. Luckily we found a surrogate at that time and now we have a surrogate child. We are very happy. No one can define the feelings of being a mother. Surrogate children belong to you no matter what. Don’t think too much about it. I wish you happiness and luck.