Hello Riana! I just have read your post. I am so much sorry for you. Dear lady, I know you are 45. And I can understand your hesitation. But till yet you have a wish in your heart. You want to be a mother. It is a good thing you are thinking about. You no need to worry at all. You asked about surrogacy. Yes, surrogacy is very best for you. You can fulfill your wish. But you have to choose the best one clinic. And avoid the irresponsible clinic like Lotus clinic. They are not fair. They will just waste your time nothing else. You should start treatment as soon as possible. I hope you will be blessed.