I Believe you are doing good in life. I can understand what you are going through. The best option available to you is to go for surrogacy. Surrogacy has been made a taboo. People should understand that people who are not able to have their own children are called infertile. These people should go for surrogacy. Finding a good clinic is a tough task. Lotus is very much stressing, as they are not client friendly. They are not concerned with your satisfaction. They are only concerned with your money. I hope you find a good clinic so that they might solve your problems. I wish you all the best.