hey, how are you? hope you are fine. they don’t take the stress. be hopeful. if you have no other choice except to go for surrogacy. then what are you waiting for? you have consulted many clinics. you have talked to many surrogate mothers willing to give your baby birth through there womb. seriously, there is nothing left to do about surrogacy. dear, you are just wasting your precious time. you should have to go for it. from what aspect you are getting afraid off. you are saying that you want to give your baby birth by your own self. then you should remember that you can’t. naturally, you can’t give your baby birth by your self. hey, it doesn’t matters who is giving birth. the thing which matters is, that this is your path of joy and happiness provided in the face of your baby in your life. so stop getting afraid off. simply you have to put all your efforts into this. my prayers are with you. best wishes are for your baby. take care of yourself.