I do hope the best for you. I can understand the pressure that you went through. Infertility is like a monster in a marriage. I have seen various marriages go down just because of lack of children. But all it takes is for you to be strong. Do not give up. I do hope that the surrogacy journey goes well with you. Personally I have been through a similar situation. I thank God as my procedure went on successful. I am now a proud mother. I do believe with determination and patience things will work out. Another good thing is that your husband supports you. That is one of the things taht is also important to you at this stage. Support from that one person you love most. It will keep you going. Trying to have a baby is something taht requires you to be psychologically ready too.