Really sad!!!!!I knew after a long time trying, your condition is totally massive.It’s too hard to cope with it.I can understand your feelings.Actually, I was also facing the tough time in my life while conceiving.It is all unexplainable, we all desperately wants to have children in life.I had my baby after 6 years through surrogacy.I am no able to conceive of my own self.But I am happy with my kid.I wish that no one had this awful moment in life.Good luck.