Hey, I am so sorry for your loss. It is hard to forget such loss. It was fate but you cannot change it. I would suggest you choose surrogacy. I am also a mother of a baby born through surrogacy. I had miscarriages and after that, I had uterus complications. I had no other way than surrogacy. I am so happy that I chose it for me. I went to Europe when I heard a lot of success stories on different forums. It was convenient for me and it is legal in Europe. I have a daughter now she is my biological baby. Hope this would help you.