Welcome to this forum. It is great that you decided to say it all. I hope it made you feel better. You have been going through a lot. I think it is time to stop wasting the time. Have you ever heard about surrogacy? You can have your own baby through it. The child will be biologically related to you and your husband. I’m suggesting it to you because I had my own son through surrogacy. This changed my love. It didn’t take much time for me to get my own baby after so much struggle. I want that for you and everyone else who is struggling. You can contact the clinic I went to. They will guide you about this whole thing in a better way. Good luck.