Hey, Sersey, venting out is therapeutic indeed. But constant agony can lead to severe depression. You need to snap out of it. Meditate, it helps to reduce stress. Moreover, stress can affect your marriage as well as emotional health. It has proven to affect fertility. I am no expert, but I can relate to what you are going through. I am 43 and have a low ovarian reserve with low AMH level. Hav tried thee cycles of IVF, three MC’s. So yeah, totally feel you, hun. it appears that in your case and mine, Age has hindered fertility. The heartbreak is real and so as the struggle. I have decided for myself surrogacy. Because nothing worked. I suggest you research your options, there is no absolute end to anything. Therefore despair not. Dreams do come true. Much love