You have been going through such a hard time. You should not lose hope. It is so nice of you to share your story over here. Your story will surely give hope to a lot of people. There are many like you. I had two miscarriages after marriage. I had lost all hope to become a mother. Then my husband and I started looking for alternatives. We found surrogacy. We were reluctant in the beginning. Nevertheless, we took our chances. Now we are blessed with a beautiful baby boy. I hope everyone gets blessed with children. Love!