Your post is so painful. I can feel your pain. I can understand that what circumstances you are going through. Because I can relate your post to mine situation. I also wants kids of my own. But unfortunately, It can’t happen. There are some bitter truths that we have to accept in our life. But still dear, don’t lose hope. As there is always a way out from your problems. Life is the name of challenges. Just face the challenges with such a strong power that everyone appreciates you.
Those who keep strong will get something good in future. And those who lose heart remain empty handed. You should learn to be happy in every situation. I just pray for you. God be with you. Thanks.