I am so sorry for your loss. I know it is hard to conceive at this age. I think surrogacy is the best option for you. My sister was 45 when she decided to have a baby. They tried but failed. She was upset when her doctor told her that it is hard to conceive at this age. I heard a lot about surrogacy everywhere. So I suggested her that she should go for surrogacy. She was happy she agreed to it. Her husband had no problem with this decision. They started searching for a clinic when they came across a clinic in Europe. They went there and they erer provided healthy surrogate. They didn’t face any complication Now its been a year to surrogacy they have a baby now. They are so happy that they got her after a lot of struggle. I hope this would help you in making a decision regarding surrogacy.