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Gabriella
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Hullo! It’s nice to know everyone here. Sorry for your losses. I also suffer from my ones.
I’m 35 years old. I’m infertile and newbie to this community! Thank you for letting me join.
It’s really a great pleasure to find out someone has finished fertility journey. Someone is now busy because he or she looks after children. Such things inspire!
Another situation when I read story of failure. It’s always so painful. I relate to each post of pain.
Last 6 years I spent in endless trying to conceive. 5 IVF rounds are left behind. I sadly haven’t succeeded.
I have never seen BFP. Oh, how I was expecting! I couldn’t sleep nights.
My heavy thoughts made both me and my husband too heavy to move on further. Today we experience frustration. We need something to encourage us.
Each time I had one more attempt I was so hopeful. I believe it was like a stupid joke. This time I’ll certainly gain what’s mine.
Unfortunately, having healthy ovaries and womb I waste my time. I give perfect response to stimulation. The doctor always collects approximately 10 eggs. They are fertilized and survive the 5th day.
After the transfer day I’m waiting for miracle. Oh, God you could let me have at least one BFP! Let me see two lines!
It would change my disposition. It would make my faith stronger. We decided that five cycles were enough.
Now we’re considering surrogacy. Or rather to say we are just sitting tight trying to digest our verdict. It’s such a tough time.
My class mate had her surrogacy journey finished. I can’t meet her but I called. She lives in Canada.
Her journey took place in the US. I don’t know where I can afford it there. It wasn’t a constructive conversation.
She mostly shared her emotions. I’ll try to learn more reading someone’s stories. Hopefully, we’ll get strength to start at last.