hello there! I am so sorry to hear about your loss. your story is really painful, you have to be strong though this. surrogacy is a great option for women who are struggling with infertility. it is the hardest thing to cope up with. I miscarried when I was 37. and I wasn’t able to conceive again because the doctors said my tubes are too damaged for this. I choose surrogacy because it helped a friend of mine, and she has two babies. I went for surrogacy and I can tell it was an amazing experience. everything was surprisingly good. I have a baby and I am really happy with my life. do not lose hope, and take care of your health. there are always other and better options. I hope it turns out well for you.