You have really gone through so many traumas in life. Life can sometimes be really hard on us. I can totally understand that MC must have been so difficult to cope with. However, you definitely are a very strong person who dealt with all of this with such bravery. I personally think you should visit a therapist just for peace of mind. I am really happy for you that you were able to find a life partner who cares about you. Looking into surrogacy is a great option and I am glad that your husband supports that. I am still on my surrogacy journey so I will try my level best to give you all the important details. When I decided to opt for it I did a lot of research I checked various clinics success rates and it is after that I choose one. They operate aboard but I was willing to go because of the high success rate and soo many good reviews. My initial meeting with them was amazing they provided me with a lot of information regarding their program. Since we went with a DE option we were given access to their database. A few days back finally decided upon a donor and now they are matching us to a surrogate as well. I hope things go fine from this point in time. Feel free to ask any specific question.