Your life has been difficult for you. It is hard for you to be a woman who cannot have their own children. This is pretty stressing not having your own children. No need to worry about it if you cannot have your own children. People nowadays are able to have children through surrogacy. It is an advanced process in which you can have your own children. But before going for it, do some good research about it as there are many clinics which are not as helping or responsive as the other ones. There was this one called Lotus if I am right. This can cause problems otherwise go for it. It can bring back the happiness of your family. Good luck.