Hey there, I am sorry to hear about your condition. But I strongly suggest that you go through surrogacy. That’s how you will feel satisfaction. First of all, I would suggest that you find the mother by yourself. That would benefit you in many ways. For example, it would not cost much of money as you will have all of her by yourself. Then you can bargain. Another thing is that no other commission would be cut off. No third party would be involved and this would result in a lesser cost of surrogacy. And the mother would also be happier to have more cost. If commissions would be involved, she would also have a lesser amount. Finding this kind of mothers is not easy these days. But I hope you would find one soon. I think it would not take more than a month. But it would need your struggle too. You will have to search on different forums and different sites. There are many sites that have this facility.