I hope you’re doing well. I’m really sorry to hear about your loss. It’s an awful situation to be in. Always sounding like an optimist doesn’t help either. It’s good that you’re being realistic. I had a similar experience. My husband and I had been TTC for many years. When we finally got pregnant, I had a miscarriage. My misfortune didn’t stop there. It kept happening. I had even more miscarriages in the coming years. I have finally, now, decided to go for surrogacy. You should really consider it. I think it’s a great and very safe way to go. Good luck!