Welcome girl. It is the right place to ask us something. Well, I am so sorry for everything. It is great you are moving on. I am not in favour of adoption. As you can not bring up anyone else baby. It is best to go for surrogacy. I have a baby through surrogacy too. Through this, you can have your genetic baby. I am recommending you surrogacy. I was infertile. I was not able to conceive a baby. So I made my mind to go for surrogacy. Now I am a happy mother. I chose surrogacy. I have no more wishes.