It is natural to get confused. It is not an easy decision. You have to think it through. That is why it is taking time. Now see you have to write down pros and cons of each. What exactly do you want? Do you want a newborn? Or you just need a child. Because it is difficult to have a baby through Adoption. You will hardly get any. Plus it will take a lot of time. Contrary to this you can get a newborn from surrogacy. You can even have a gestational baby. Which means the baby will be related to you by blood. I am sure you would be delighted by this news. So now it will be easy to make a decision.