Hello dear. Your story rendered me speechless. It is so sad. And heart-wrenching. You being here an sharing this with us makes you strong automatically. Shows how much willpower you still have for a baby. We need more people like you girl. After so much you have gone through, you still have the power to take more. You are doing great. You should seek the correct help for you. With the strength you have, I am sure you are gonna find luck. Cheers. Hope good fortune comes to you. Try alternatives. Go for whatever you seem comfortable with.