Hi Monika! How are you? I can understand your feelings. You feelings are valid. I know what are you going through. But I am happy that you didn’t give up. Soon you’ll become a mother. Don’t worry about the surrogate. If you consult her through the clinic then clinic guarantees her. But anyways I hope your experience will be the best. You’ll get the friend for life. Surrogacy is the option for infertile women so that they be able to become a mother. One of my friends also became a mother through surrogacy. Her surrogate mother was best. She also took great care of her and her baby. Wishing best of you and your family. I hope everything goes smoothly.