Please don’t be this upset. It hurts me to see you like this. Losing hope. I want you to keep it together, please. Everything will get better. I promise. There are so many that face infertility issues. You’re not alone in this. I think you should try going for an IVF. It really helps many. Some clinics even offer multiple tries til success. That would really be worth the money. If not that, then you could try out surrogacy. I have experience of that myself too. I can vouch for it. It’s been amazing to me. I have a little girl from it. There are so many options. Any could work out for you. I think it’s best you talk to your hubby about this. He’ll understand. Wishing you all the best!