hello, Emma James!!! I read your whole post. I can understand your situation. That’s so bad. This is the deepest desire of every woman to be a mom once in her life. because children make parents relation strong. They bring happiness to their lives. Don’t be discourages due to their irresponsible behavior. They did what they want to do. Don’t ruin your future just because of them. let them go away. Make another try. It is not possible that your every try should be the best one. Some trials may be as a test ball before starting a match. Start your journey with new zeal and new hope.