Hi Dear! Hope you will be fine soon. I feel sorry for you. Always sounding like an optimist doesn’t help either. It’s good that you’re being realistic. But don’t worry everything will be alright. I can understand what you are going through. Being afraid before going for surrogacy is a normal thing. I was also afraid when I started my treatment. I was also infertile because of miscarriages. The doctor declared me infertile. I had a son through surrogacy. It was a great experience in my life. I am really happy now to have him in my life. Best wishes to you.