Dear Jules! How are you feeling now? I am worried about you. May you comforted by the outpouring love surrounding you. You have the support of your husband and this will also help you a lot. Infertility is not your fault it is by nature. Your anxious feelings are valid too. You should focus towards the solutions. Every problem has a solution. The science is very advanced. There are many treatments available. IVF is one of them. You can consult a good clinic and start your treatment after a proper checkup. I hope everything will be in your favor. It is not that difficult. Stay relaxed and optimistic.