36 is still young, let me tell you. Just keep going. I know it gets so tiring at times. However, your best move is to just keep trying I guess. So, are you about to start your heparin injections? So, you live far away, and you have to postpone. So sorry to hear that. We just have to accept that these things occur in life, and move on. Keep sharing your feelings and thoughts here. Users like me find useful info. And, bottling up feelings is never healthy