Hi Missha. You surely are not the only one going through it. A friend of mine recently had a baby through a surrogacy clinic in Ukraine. It has been a long journey for her and her husband, specifically after years of tries to conceive. I think it was a miracle for them to find the option of surrogacy and to be referred to the clinic. In the end I think the entire journey was worth it for them. They finally got their baby and they are so happy with everything. I think what made the journey bearable for them was the consistent support for friend and family, and the helpful staff and doctors at the clinic. It would not have been possible if the doctors where not open to them and if they had any sort of a barrier to communication. I have never seen my friend so satisfied with anything. Though the constant travelling has been tiring for her. But in the end, it was all worth it. I think you need to be a bit optimist about the future and about the process. Do not overthink things. I am sure your journey would have a happy ending, which would open a new chapter to your life. Best of luck.