It is great that you have chosen an alternative for your infertile life.Now the days are not far when you will be a proud mother. This is going to be a proud moment for you. You will have everything that you were longing for. Right now you are scared of the surrogacy. This is what I call the fear of the unknown. Such fears are natural. sometimes the past losses are very painful. They lead to uncertainty and hopelessness. When the past has a great deal of disappointment you visualize everything in the light of those happenings. In fact, this is not right. It hinders the way to the happiness in the future. You need to come out of all this. Recovery is very important. Survival exists only for those who are ready to fight with their odds. Take surrogacy as a normal pregnancy. There is nothing to get worried about. Surrogacy has gifted several parents with the ultimate blessing of the parenthood.