Hey Stormi. You are not the only one going through this and it is not rare. We are all in this together and it happens to the best of us. You don’t need to have any pessimistic thoughts about your decisions rather you should feel proud to have come to some conclusion instead of just sitting in your bed crying your eyes out. Surrogacy might sound a bit difficult and complicated at first but once you are confident enough I know you can deal with it all on your own. There are many clinics out there working in this regard and especially those in Europe are getting much appreciation. If you keep trying and not give up, I am sure you are going to find the right one for you. I really hope you find the support you need. Cheers.