Hey Alsa! how are you dear? You are really a brave lady. I am happy that you made it through accident. Don’t worry dear if one door closes other is always there. I hope your husband can understand your pain. Your feelings whatever they are is valid. It’s not your fault. You can opt the other options like IVF and surrogacy. There are some good clinics that are dealing with infertility. I also went through IVF process. The doctors were so cooperative and amazing. They give me the courage to do so. My first attempt was successful. I think you should go to that clinic and take the proper checkups. The clinic is in eastern Europe. Good luck.