Hey Alsa! Hope so you will be fine. I just read your post. You are spending a very tough time. Of course, you should go for alternatives. Such methods are really great and people are also getting so much help from it. There is a clinic in Europe, I heard so many great reviews about experiences about them. Even one of my friends had her successful surrogacy from there. I think you should consult them. I hope it will be fruitful for you.