Hey dear, this would be really frustrating for you. I do understand your feelings. But you have come to the right. Surrogacy would be a great option. You should talk to your husband related to this. I think he would agree with you. As you are 43 now. Surrogacy would be better. Surrogacy is an amazing process. It is as safe as the normal pregnancy. You will have to find a surrogate for you. There are many clinics that offer surrogacy. But make sure to consult a good doctor. Best of luck dear. I hope it works for you.