Hello there Lisa. I am sorry that you are going through this hell as you said it… THis is not the end howver dear. Maybe thats what it seems like to you right now but believe me there is more. In your life as of right now you have only seen the bad stuff. You have suffered a lot and been through hell. Again i am very sorry for that… However try to cheer up as what will come from now on will be better. It is only normal for that to happen. That’s how I know that you will be having a better life starting soon enough. I guess that’s how god operates. At first he gives us suffering and hard times! Usually after that he follows with relief and happiness. Keep on strong dear! God bless you!