Seems like you are going through a lot. This is the reasons we have such community online. To help others heal. By providing support and care. others do not find it in the normal world. But here regardless of where you are from. You are part of the family. The years have gone so fast. Maybe in your prime years you were busy studying and working. Then you come to realize that you need a child later in life. I cannot say that it is bad. But these are amongst things that will make you reconsider. That is why it is better to start a family first. Then later studied an profession can follow. However I dnt think hope is lost. You can try to look for a good clinic that can help you in your situation. I believe an answer to your problem is out there. All you have to do is search well.