Berta, I read your whole post and it disturbs me. I was thinking about you. it’s a more depressed feeling. I have gone through this. It’s a time where you can’t see what is true and what is wrong with you. everybody has a different suggestion for you. in this difficult phase you can’t make a decision or can filter out that who is your friend and who is playing trick with you. even doctors don’t think sometimes for the betterment of his patient. They just think about the money. How to make money more and more form this patient.? This is not usual but happens. This is world and we can expect everything awkward can happen. If your doctor is sincere to you. then admit his advice and think about it deeply. Otherwise, seek suggestion from others whom you have trust.